apomakrysmenophobian. fear that your connections with people are ultimately shallow, that although your relationships feel congenial at the time, an audit of your life would produce an emotional safety deposit box of low-interest holdings and uninvested windfall profits, which will indicate you were never really at risk of joy, sacrifice or loss.
via The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows.
everytime I release a new website into the abyss of the internets, I feel the need to refer to the dictionary of obscure sorrows.
the ruminations are so spot on, it leaves me with shivers and goosebumps of admiration and awe for the author(s).